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the quiet hum of my computers internal fan is almost hypnotic. i’ve already fallen asleep once tonight on a bed full of stuff because of it. my dad walked in and told me.. you’re not gonna be able to sleep if you sleep like that. ironic how he has to wake me up to tell me that. now he went to sleep, and i’m on my chair, writing on blogger at 3 in the morning which is pointless again because my ftp server is down at the moment. and it has been down for.. 3 days now. not that i hvae anything to upload except these bloggers posts.. hopefully i’ll be able to upload them before i leave for training. i got 3 shots today. hep a, hep b, and typhoid. weird think is.. i didn’t feel it when i was getting shots.. but.. now.. my arms feel like.. pain, ok.. i couldn’t anything descript to say. they just hurt. and i jammed my middle finger so.. well i guess i don’t use that finger much anyways.. my parents don’t know thi but i parked my car in front of there, so that can’t leave for church with moving my car. i promised i’d be at church by 10 tomorrow. and even if i sleep only.. what.. 5 hours now.. they’re going to have to wake me up to move the car. i’m sure they’ll some how find a way to leave without waking me even though they know that i hvae no alarm clock in my room. although i’m reduced back to just a 56k, it’s good to be back home. true, i will miss t1, but it’s not like i’m going to be home in the enxt two months. maybe i’ll convince my parents to get dsl. hummm…. the fan’s getting to my head and my eyes are getting heavy. i don’t know how much longer i …. zzzzzzzzzz

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you think a guy like that gets this close and then sticks his head out?… in my opinion, i don’t think you’ll see him for a long time…. rephrased usual suspects.. it’s been a while since i’ve seen the movie.. but i think that’s the jist of what he says. well it’s the end of the year, and i’m moving out today. for some reason… something deep in my inner being is telling me.. you forgot to do something.. very important. and it’s just making me.. really.. edgy…. maybe it’s cause i realize.. from now on.. i’ve got no free life until august 8th. today i finish moving out.. going to art’s graduation. then some time between now and this monday.. i’m gonna have to take my shots, buy supplies, move in my house.. pack to leave… i’m seeing arthur chung this weekend.. it’s been a long time… wow. kinda makes me realize how much.. one day.. one week.. one month.. does. just think about it.. where someone’s facial expression can you change your emotions in an instant… think about how many instances come in a year. when i go to the philippines, i’m hoping that i *goseng alot. not that i want to, but i need change in my life. i have to be thankful for what i got. i wanna come back and people just look at me and say.. what happened? when i came back from korea.. everyone told me.. wow.. you’re so much nicer now. i guess the weird part is.. i know deep inside.. when i do come bakc.. i’m gonna be the same person.. i’m gonna act the same in certain situations, laugh at the same jokes, like the same girls.. i think this might be the last time i write here.. though i do have 4 more days left. so i highly doubt it. i think i should go eat a handful of sugar..

*for those korean illiterate, goseng i think means.. to .. have.. hard times. loosely translated

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you know that guy from the budweiser commercial where he’s in the bathroom for half the commercial trying to perfect his perfect line but when he comes out and says it to the girl, he gets rejected? i laugh whenever i see that. it’s so true. sometimes. i sit and think of the perfect thing to say to a girl. the girl. and when i see her in person, i’m just.. blah blah.. hubita hubita. i’m an idiot when it comes to girls. haha i seem to always do something that degrades them. which defeats the whole purpose of what i’m trying to do. are they really worth all the time i spend thinking and definitely stressing about them? hmm.. i don’t think girls are worth it. except the special ones. and over time you realize which ones are the special ones and which ones are the ones you could forget tomorrow. i had a long talk with someone i didn’t expect to talk to. this guy, who lives across from me, loves giving me advice. i bet he’ll be shocked the day he realizes i’m the same age as him. anyways. he told me how, if you truly like a girl, it really wouldn’t matter what other people say, or what other people do. at the end, she’ll be worth it. haha. well.. it’s the last week of real classes.. and i couldn’t be more happier about it. ewll.. i could be. i mean. the whole you wish and wish that the year would end. but now that it’s finally here.. i think i’m gonna miss a couple of the poelpe here. yeah.. people always say, it doesn’t sound like you’re coming back. you know. i mihgt now. I keep hearing how La Sierra isn’t a good computer school. actually it’s a terrible computer school. they’re saying they’re getting more funding and new teachers. but someone told me they made those promises before. I’m better off at walla walla or puc they say. i just wonder if all my business is finished here. i have concluded that the crazytown cd sucks. though i like some of the songs on the lit cd. i just realized, God sometimes answers prayers to problems before you even know its there.

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