hey.. it’s early in the morning right now.. i just finished a game of literati, with 3 other people who also haven’t slept all night.. one pulled an all nighter and just went to take a final… i should be.. sleeping.. if i sleep now, i’d wake up around.. 2 ish.. which isn’t a good thing. anyways.. yah.. it’s almost been a week since the last time i posted.. and a lot’s happened the past couple days to.. make me think a lot… i haven’t slept in the pm’s since who knows. and.. lately.. i haven’t been sleeping anytime before 3. tomorrow night.. i will sleep early… yah.. that’s not going to happen. i’m gonna stay up all night playing video games… it’s been fortold.

that’s what i told my bible studies group at least… which i’m starting to .. really.. find is a good thing for me. church has always been a second thought to me. not that i’d ever leave the church.. it was just.. a routine i’ve gone though. which chuch shall i go to this week.. who shall i hang out with next week.. etc etc.. but.. it seems.. i’m enjoying it a lot more now. it’s been a while since i’ve had to worry about taking someone home .. which is quite refreshing to me. . though.. at the same time.. there’s some dark cloud above me.. like.. i’m being stressed. i don’t quite know for sure what it’s about but.. it just.. is bothering me. anyways.. i’ve been helping out with children’s praise recently.. by playing my guitar.. although i’m not set to play every week.. it seems like i’m being asked to do it every week… i don’t really mind.. give me a definite reason for going to LAC. anyways.. lately.. i’ve been asking God for signs for what to do.. what in store for me.. i was contemplating this on the road. i love la after it rains.. the streets look so alive in color… i’ve always felt that’s when God tells you that he’s here… but he called to me today.. one person, in a big suv. pulled in front of me.. and he had a license plate that said, jeremiah 29:11.. i was told this verse when i went to the philippines and i used to it to help me get through all the things i had problems with.. and…

i don’t know.. i guess.. God wanted me to see it then….

i’m starting to get really tired.. my face feels really dry for some reason… i’ve spent the last two days at joorees house.. i pretty much avoided her all of last week.. not realyl on purpose.. i never really got a call from her, or any contact, other than a couple im’s.. but i knew in the back of my mind she was trying to call me.. i just.. never picked up the phone to call her. but either.. we just.. got back from where we started… and.. everything all peachy keen now….

i went to the banquet last weekend.. and honestly.. i think my.. irregular sleep hours can definitely be accounted to that… for some reason i couldn’t sleep at night.. on friday night.. it was the worst.. things were just flying through my head.. “what am i gonna do tomorrow” “what should i wear” “should i get her a flower” “am i supposed to pick her up”… but yah.. i was so.. flattered she asked me.. that yah.. i stilld ont’ know why she did.. and when i went to pick her up at her place… i was like.. dumbfounded for the first couple minutes.. and i ended up just saying stupid stuff all night.. haha… sigh…

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