well.. i’m posting more often now.. i think i posted more times last month than i ever did any of the previous months. the whole.. xanga thing has totally inspired me. seems like every day i’m checking andy k’s xanga post, and after i realize he hasn’t changed anything, i go to andreia’s. and she always has this way of making.. me want to pray right after i read it.. anyways.. i was gonna post earlier.. but blogger has added a pay part of the website.. and i think they deliberately said they’re servers were too full to allow non-paying blogger users to post.. so you shell.. out the hmm.. the 3 dollars a month. eh.. there’s gotta be another blogger-like server out there.. yah.. unimportant rambling..

the last couple of days have been.. i dont’ know how to explain.. it’s been a blur and it seems like i haven’t been getting anything done.. my parents have been on their prayer week at church.. so they leave at.. 5 in the morning and come back at 10 at night.. so.. i can go countless hours without any human interactions other than my delusional ones with the tv and the digital ones online. and after hour upon hour of playing spades where your stupid partner bids a 8 when you bid a 6, things start irritating you. well i do. i start getting edgy.. and i need to get out and have some fresh air. i can’t wait until december 22nd. be able to hit someone hard, legally in a game of football. does football promote violence in me, or does it keep me from bottling it up and exploding later?

i keep seeing commercials and news reports abou the snow. and people keep talking to me about mammoth and snowboarding.. and such and such.. and i’m excited. i think the vibe at the moment is that everyone is.. i don’t think i’ve ever heard more people want to go snowboarding before… wonder why that is.. i mean.. i wanna go just cause i learned how to carve.. everyone around me seems to have gotten a board for themselves.. but it’ looks like i’m gonna be just using one of those rented ones again.. though.. i haven’t asked my parents if i could go.. i’m not sure why not.. i’m sure they’d say yes.. they have the last.. 3-4 years?.. but yah.. church needs me to drive.. and.. hmm.. i’m just thinking.. if i can’t go.. then i can’t drive.. then.. 3 other people can’t go… shrug… yah.. we’ll see what happens…

lastly.. hmm.. happy birthday, mom.. i know you don’t ever look at my website.. and i never gave you the link to my website. or.. i don’t think i’d even want you to read anything i wrote here.. happy birthday to you…

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