well.. it’s 7 o’clock on sunday and technically i should be at mammoth enjoying the beautiful weather and the beautiful woman. and.. in actuallity.. i am here at mammoth… but the reoccuring thought in my head seems to be a wish that i had just stayed at home and gotten a guitar in christmas…

right now… i’m watching the ravens-steelers game. raven’s are my favorite football team. right now i’m sitting alone in my cabin. everyone else is eating. right now.. i’m wondering where my pants are. i must’ve left them in my car.. or in the other cabin. right now… i’m cold… i can slightly feel the fireplace burning across the room from me… right now … i’m confused. i have too many thoughts running through my head. i’m tired. i’m not sure what i’m doing…

i need some time on my own.. sort what’s going through my head. see.. these are the times when having my guitar would be useful. if i hadn’t come here, i would have a nice guitar to play. if i hadn’t come here… would i have reason to sort what’s going through my head?

maybe it’s just the hollidays.. maybe it’s the cold weather.. but right now.. all i want is someone to let me sleep on their lap. but that’s not gonna happen.

snowboarding was pretty fun today. i think i got carving down pretty well… but now my knees are totally shot. i don’t think it’s from falling on them. it’s like the feeling i get when i run a lot. my wrist is pretty screwed up too. but i think that’s from football yesterday. i had surprisingly a lot of fun playing.

yesterday, pastor nam had a sermon where his point was something i never heard before. the point was… people who look to themselves and see what changes they must do are being selfish… honor goes to those that look to others and try to help them instead. i’m probably telling the point wrong… i’m tired.. what can you expect.

i really have nothing to write about… although i’m writing a lot.. i prefer to keep my deeper thoughts hidden somewhere for now. *shrug… whatever…

well.. i should go back to the other cabin. i wonder if people realize i’m not around. hmm… eh.. i’ll just finish watching this game.

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