i feel.. very off today.. there’s this feeling i get whenever i go into a hot spa for a really long time, and then come out.. and it’s cold.. my body feels.. warm but cold at the same time.. anyways.. although i wasn’t in a spa for a really long time.. or anything of the sort.. except .. i guess showering.. i have the feeling.. and i’ve had the feeling all day.. i just feel.. warm.. but i feel cold… i was blasting hot air in my car .. but.. i could never get it hot enough… i ate some eggs today.. maybe that’s why…

anyways.. i had this conversation with ted about getting the tattoo…

RatBrat22: maybe in the inner thigh

RatBrat22: hahahha

time To IM tim: inner thigh

time To IM tim: haha

RatBrat22: only way u can show is to strip and spread

time To IM tim: haha

time To IM tim: yah

RatBrat22: and after awhile you’ll be like.. eh i don’t feel like showing it to u anymore

RatBrat22: hahah

time To IM tim: i don’t think anyone would want to see it

RatBrat22: i dunno man..

RatBrat22: tim: “i got a tattoo..”

RatBrat22: other person: “really? let me see it!”

time To IM tim: haha

RatBrat22: tim: option1: “umm.. nah”

RatBrat22: tim: option2: “alright. [strip and spread]”

RatBrat22: other: “WHAT THE!”

time To IM tim: haha

RatBrat22: option2 tim: “why did i do that..”

RatBrat22: hahahhaa

time To IM tim: i could put it on my butt

RatBrat22: hahahha

anyways.. he’s against it.. eh.. what do you think?

man.. i’m so sore right now.. it’s been.. two days since football but still.. my muscles are aching.. no no.. they’re not bruises.. matter of fact.. i wasn’t tackled once.. nor.. flag pulled .. or.. two hand touched… though.. i did play pretty much.. 4 hours straight… i got to tchs at.. 10.. and.. there was no one there.. i actually ran around the track once to occupy myself… but yah.. eventually people came… there was.. 30 in all i believe… 18 from la central..

1st hour was touch

2-3 hour was flag

4th hour was tackle

anyways… yah.. when i was running though.. i could totally tell i was gaining weight.. feels like.. my legs were running through water or sand or something.. i didn’t enjoy it at all.. sigh.. so.. i gotta start running again.. i run every friday around tc.. but… maybe it’s time for me to start my everyday running again… i need someone to run with… why is it so much easier to run when there’s someone there with you? shrug… a lot of things seem easier when someone else is there…

i came across this website looking for something else today… anyways.. it’s about a girl who’s now a pagan and why she became one. she seems to know some about the bible.. but shows how hypocricy in the christian church turned her away…

i’m assuming most of the people reading this are christians.. so.. think of this before you “tell” someone they’re wrong for not being one.

ok.. this survey was off of jooree’s xanga awhile back..

Name three bad habits you have: procrastination, laziness, apathy

Name four scents you love: laundry out of the dryer, lotion from bath and body (forgot the kind), herbal essenses, apple pie (i copied this off the earlier survey

Name four things you’d never wear: tighty-whities, woman’s underwear, basketball jersey

Name four animals you like: falcon, martin, wolf, platypus

Name four television shows you love: scrubs, west wing, smallville, simpsons

Name four bands/groups most people don’t know you like: dixie chicks, michelle branch, john mayer, eminem

Name four drinks you regularly drink: cherry coke, barqs, water, pepsi

Name four random facts about yourself: i’ve broken both my arms, i’ve had two girlfriends.. one lasted a week, i have the number 53 in my car, i like football

Name four random facts about your family: we haven’t moved since i was born, we have 3 infiniti/nissan cars, we have a grand piano, we just got a dvd player

Fallen for your Best Friend?: i’ve become best friends with someone i’d once fallen for

Made out with JUST a friend?: hmm..maybe

Been rejected?: like stood up? bora always stands me up

Been in love?: yup

Been in lust?: yup

Used someone?: used them for ?

Been used?: i feel used a lot

Cheated on someone?: one week girlfriend

Been cheated on?: hmm.. i’ve felt like it

Done something you regret?: hmm.. i’ve never done anything i haven’t learned from

Who was the last person..

You touched?: probably jooree

You talked to?: jooree again

You hugged?: wow.. gotta think back… i think it had to have been jina

You instant messaged?: jooree, she always ims me

You yelled at?: i didn’t yell at her, but i had an argument with grace

You laughed with?: probably jooree again

You had a crush on?: wouldn’t you like to know

Who broke your heart?: hmm.. a lot of people

Color your hair?: hmm.. when i went to the philippines

Have tattoos?: i’m thinking about getting one

Piercings?: no

Floss daily?: no

Own a webcam?: no

Have aol?: yes

What should you be doing right now?: sleeping

What are you listening to?: nothing

Can you do anything freakish with your body?: like.. what?

Chicken or fish?: i’m vegetarian

Do you have a favorite animal?: these questions seem to be redundant

Is ice cream the best thing in the world?: hmm.. sure

Single flower or a dozen?: the less you pay for flowers, the more you can spend on other things

Silver, gold or platinum?: shrug

Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at home? one of my fantasy’s is a girl that cooks for me only wearing an apron

Roses or wild flowers?: hmm.. where do you find wild flowers in LA

Silly or serious romance?: i don’t know what this is asking

Marvin Gaye or Barry white?: (deep voice) you’re my first, my last, my everything

Do you consider yourself a romantic?: hmm… maybe…

Shy?: i think i am, i don’t think others think i am

Quiet?: when i’m tired

What did u do today?: i bought and watched the movie amadeus

Today Have You . . .

Laughed?: yes

Helped someone?: hmm… i told my dad how to use the dvd player

Cut your hair?: no

Kissed someone?: no

Missed someone?: yes

Told someone you love them?: no

Hugged someone?: no

Met someone new?: no

Talked to someone you have a crush on?: hmm…

What CD is in your CD player right now?: madden 2003

Favorite Disney Characters?: the guy from mulan

Favorite fast food?: in-n-out, carl’s jr

Favorite book?: hmm..

Favorite Sports teams?: dodgers

Favorite song?: puddle of mudd – she hates me

What is your shoe size?: 9.5

What will you be when you grow up?: a computer scientist

well.. it seems like i haven’t updated this in sometime… actually.. i did write something here last week, but for some reason blogger decided to delete it… shrug.. whatever… anyways.. it’s been an interesting last two weeks for me… life has .. been.. interesting.. i gave blood last friday.. and i don’t think my body’s recovered from the lack of blood yet… man, friday night was the worse. i went camping at camp cedar falls and.. i remember the woman that drew my blood told me, “drink a lot of water” but.. i guess since it was cold the last couple months… (it being winter and all) all the drinking fountains were out of order.. the only one available was up the hill in the main lodge… so… i didn’t drink a lot of water on friday..

and.. i couldn’t sleep that night.. man.. it wasn’t really that my throat felt like sand paper.. my body just felt dry.. i kept trying to sleep so i didn’t have to walk up the hill until the next morning for breakfast.. but.. around 4 or 5.. i decided i would die if i didn’t get water … so.. i got up.. and started the hike up to the top. it was pretty cold that night, and i had just shorts and a tshirt on… seemed like a long trip.. but yah.. i finally got to the drinking fountain.. and.. i stayed in the lodge for an hour. when i drank the water i felt like throwing up.. but i just forced myself to drink more….

anyways.. ever since then.. my body.. hasn’t been right… i’m tired real often.. and my face feels like it’s been attacked.. i’ve never had chap lips on my lower lip before.. until this weekend.. i feel like throwing up when i drink water still.. hopefully all of this’ll pass soon… cause..

it’s super bowl sunday this weekend.. yay!… i am so excited… i’ve been wanting to play football .. for .. so long.. ever since we played at mammoth.. i just want to take someone out… anyone.. hmmm.. jukes… hehehe.. but yah.. my ankles still not fully recovered.. and i did something to my wrist at camp cedar falls.. hopefully.. everything will be fine and dandy by then… i doubt it… jina told me i shouldn’t play.. said i’d regret it years from now.. i already regret it.. sometimes.. i do the littlelest thing.. and pain.. unbearable pain… i’ll be fine.. what’s a little pain anyways.. physical pain goes away…

emotional pain… valentines is coming up… one of my closest friends keeps telling me how lonely she is.. i don’t know.. it’s kinda weird cause .. i just never thought of her to be the type to actually say that.. but yah…

jennifer still is trying to figure out who my little crush is… i think it’s more than just a little crush now.. but either way… have you ever… thought of someone but.. all you can think of is.. i shouldn’t be thinking about this person… shrug… i dont’ know what i’m talking about..

i’ve got a headache