i’ve been sitting here at home waiting and waiting for the real estate brokers from my mom’s place to come to do estimates on the house.. they were supposed to come at 2.. it’s 4 now.. they still haven’t come.. i’m getting kinda hungry… i have a feeling.. if i leave the house for 15 minutes.. the people will come then.. shrug.. with my luck.. i’m sure that’s what’ll happen.. anyways.. yah.. if you put two and two together.. my house is going on sale.. which means… there’s a good chance i’m moving. i don’t know where to.. i’ve never moved in my life.. i grew up in the room i live in today. here’s a tiny snippet of a conversation i had with andy.

time To IM tim : i might move

And4 Lee : to where?

time To IM tim : i don’t know

And4 Lee : that…

And4 Lee : would be weird

time To IM tim : yes

time To IM tim : but my house is going to go on sale

time To IM tim : we remodeled the kitchen

And4 Lee : why are you selling it?

And4 Lee : i think i would cry

And4 Lee : if you moved away

time To IM tim : she wants a bigger backyard

time To IM tim : hahaha

And4 Lee : move closer to my house

time To IM tim : it’ll probably be to another place in san gabriel or temple city

time To IM tim : but there’s a chance i might move somewhere else

time To IM tim : my mom doesn’t like the houses on sale right now

time To IM tim : i dont’ know

moving out of the san gabriel valley… moving out of LA.. i can’t even fathom that.. i remember the day that we got rid of my pontiac firebird.. my first car.. i almost cried. i don’t know how i’d take a move.. but it’s inevitable i guess… life goes on… things change.. mr roger’s dies. sigh.. who’ll be my neighbor…

man.. i haven’t been able to sleep at night.. i mean.. i have been.. going to bed.. at .. 11:30 ish.. maybe 12.. but.. i just.. have really disturbed sleep at night. maybe i have a snoring problem and i just keep waking myself up.. no no.. i don’t think that’s it… i guess there’s just too many things running through my mind right now.. sigh.. yah.. things to stress about… i’ve been having some really intense dreams.. i don’t quite remember what they’re about.. i think a couple of them have been of people telling me that they don’t love me or something.. people i don’t know.. coming up to me and saying that in my dream… it’s really.. odd.. so much happening all at once.. i wake up every morning with a large headache…

i’m thinking about running a half marathon.. i’ve always wanted to run the LA marathon.. but registrations always like.. in december when the race is in april or something.. but.. there’s a half marathon in la jolla and i was talking to… andee about it.. and she got me really pumped up to do it.. i just have to find someone that will train with me.. hmm.. i haven’t ran since i screwed up my ankle last october.. which…

i realized.. isn’t fully healed yet.. every once in a while.. i land on it wrong and i get a sharp pain up my leg.. my wrist feels weird too. i’ve gotten all these injuries playing basketball… what’s with that? i never get hurt playing football or baseball.. man.. i want to go to the batting cage… and i’m hungry.. and .. will the week every end?

hmm.. for some reason.. web1000 is down right now.. so.. it’ll be temporarily at the lac youth website for a little bit… i think it’s only supposed to stay like this for the day..

please help me ma’am… my website doesn’t work! =(

hmmm.. i took this picture.. last year at la sierra.. it was with the campus counsellor.. don’t worry.. the picture was staged… either way.. i feel.. hmm.. i’m not sure what emotion i feel right now.. i felt really absent minded today.. i lost my car in the parking lot. i bought a pick that was 80 cents and lost it in my car. when i bought it .. i thought to myself.. man this thing is cheap.. then i realized.. wait a second.. if i can buy 12 for 5 bucks.. this is not cheap at all.. shrug…

the rain stopped.. maybe that’s a sign.. sign of what?.. i don’t know.. i can decide to just wash my car again.. and it’ll rain again…

i’ve noticed that the last couple of days.. i haven’t been following my bedtime at all.. it’s not that i don’t get tired.. i mean.. i’m dead tired now.. it’s not that i have something better to do.. i mean.. i’m writing in blogger right now… how important is this… i don’t know.. i guess nothing’s stopping me… so.. i guess.. i’ll start sleeping earlier again. now’s a good time to start…

i know it’s past my bedtime right now.. but yah… i’ll go to sleep after this i guess… it started to rain today.. i did.. wash my car last thursday.. i guess it was only a matter of short time before it started raining.. God loves to do that to me it seems… sometimes, i think God decides to make it rain when i’m having a really bad day.. i always say.. rain is God’s way of tapping on my shoulder… and i guess.. yah.. he wants me to know he’s around…

a lot of people have asked me why my favorite number is 27.. well the answer is because my favorite chapter in the bible is found in psalms 27. i first read this chapter when my aunt gave me a bookmark with my name on it.. and the beginning of this chapter on it. but ever since i’ve thought about it a lot whenever i’ve been going through tough times or when i’ve been worried about things that’ll happen… i’m amazed i’ve never heard a song written with any of the lyrics.. but here’s the chapter..

psalms 27:

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.

3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.

4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.

5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.

6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.

9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.

11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.

12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.

13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.