7:10 – woke up

driving to school today… 15 minutes late, i saw a man wearing medical clothes on the side of the road yelling for some help. so even though i was late, i made a big U-ee and went back to guy. for some reason for the first time this semester, i decided to wear shoes and if this guy needs a push… hey.. first time i’d be able to.

first thing when i got out of my car the black man said to me…

“are you going to san bernadino?”

no

“my name is duane and i live in temple city. my cars messed up and i need to work… i’m a nurse in san bernadino.. here’s my drivers license.. here’s my hospital id..

suspicion creeped in my head… a male nurse? wow.. you don’t see that every day.

“…the bus said it’d cost 18.50 for me to get there… i only have spare change. can you spare me some money.. what’s your address… i’ll pay you back…”

i gave the guy 5 bucks. mind you.. i lost my wallet a month or so ago with quite a bit of change in there. and… recently i’ve been living off peanuts… literally… for some reason my parents keep buying bags of peanuts.. and ramen…

30 minutes late…

i walk into my class… wearing my red gym shorts, my ripped gap shirt, my dodger cap backwards and my new running shoes. i make eye contact with an asian girl in the class. the only asian girl in the class i believe. the only.. girl in the class maybe.. (there’s a lot of computers.. and i sit in the front.. so i don’t see many people) she looks in my eyes.. and she smiles. do i amuse you?

7:30 – i haven’t missed anything in class.

jay’s reviewing yesterday’s lecture. actually.. he’s been reviewing yesterdays’ lectures all week. come on jay, we’re only halfway through the semester… already ran out of things to teach?

7:45 – surf’s up

after completing the in-class assignment… i’ve decided to surf the web. hmmm.. mike still hasn’t gotten back to me on the email i sent. maybe i’ve sent it to the wrong address? i’m doing pretty well in the rosemead fantasy baseball league.. i’ve jumped about 30 points since i’ve been paying attention to the league. though i’ve dropped like.. 15 points in the LA league. my brain is so one track sometimes.

multitasking eludes me.

hmm.. what classes to take for summer…. last class is on 7-24. the mission trip ends on the 27th. o well.

8:15 – come back home

i leave school.. and as i’m driving down san gabriel, i check to see if duane is still there, yelling at cars… technically i have enough time to drive him to san bernadino.. where ever that is…his car isn’t there anymore. that bastard.

8:25 – get home

this is the first time… i’ve come home from my first class and my parents have been gone. where are they?… this is the first time i’ve done an entry pretty much on what i did in the day.

9:06 - finished blog

i’m going to take a nap

(— what do you think of this guitar?

this is a washburn nv100 acoustic-electric guitar.

it features a b-band under-saddle mic

2-bolt neck joint

schaller engraved tuners

buzz feiten tuning system

other things

and comes with a hardshell case. most of this of course goes over my head.

it looks like a beautiful guitar though and i like playing on washburns.

i don’t particularly like the acoustics of a martin. nor do i like the feeling of a fender. taylor’s are far too expensive. ovations are girls guitars. well.. my mom seems to be in the giving mood.. so she said she’d get me a guitar. i told her she should get my sister a piano. it’d be a shame if the boys grew up without one.

anyways…

mike, i got shin guards

charlene, i got running shoes

i was thinking the other day about something jina said to me. she said.. something like.. “isn’t it funny how easy it is to just move on? things that seem important to you, don’t seem to be important after a time…” and remembering what she said.. under my breath i said… “God, i hope that’s not true”

and i thought…. am i using the word God as slang.. or am i actually directing my statement to Him. i then realized.. (not just realized) that i’m always talking to God. i’m always asking Him why this and why that in my head. have you ever looked at me sitting alone somewhere, seeming like i’m zoning out? i bet you at least half the time, i’m having a conversation with God.

“o God, why!?” no, really.. why…

at times i wonder if it’s a one way conversation or two.

i think i have a high reliance on God. and i think i have a high trust in God. like right now my dog was barking all morning and i said.. “Can you make her stop that?” and she barked once and stopped. now.. maybe it’s coincidence.. but my stay in the philippines has told me there’s really no such thing as coincidences.

i don’t know if my reliance is always a good thing though. i trust God so much at times that i end up doing nothing. “I know God will pull me through it” well.. i know He will.. so why do something.. “God helps those that help themselves,” jina said to me. i suppose…

i just realized an odd occurence. i seems.. i get more hits on this website when i don’t post than when i do. i’m guessing maybe it’s because after i post.. if someone sees that i did post, they figure i won’t post again in a while. and if i didn’t post, they figure that i’ll post soon and continue to come back… shrug.. just a theory.

i just realized … i start a lot of posts with the phrase.. i just realized… when in actuality.. i didn’t just realize.. i realized it a long time ago.. but i didn’t think of posting it until then. so.. “i just realized” should be changed to.. “i realized a long time ago but only now decided to post …”

7-11 guy: where did you get that necklace?

me: a friend of mine gave it to me

7-11 guy: girl friend?

me: no… just a friend

7-11 guy: friend that’s a girl?

me: yes

7-11 guy: but not a girlfriend

me: i don’t have a girlfriend

7-11 guy: why not? you should have 2 or 3 girlfriends

umm… was he hitting on me? … cause you know.. i get lonely at times.. hehe.. i’m getting hungry.. maybe i’ll go to 7-11