jibberish that’d bore you –

danny inspired me to work on my website again. i pretty much spent most of my free time today trying to figure out how to add rss feeds to a website. i finally figured it out so i decided to add it to my site. while i was doing it, i figured i’d change my website around and use css. i ended up just rewriting the website from scratch. but in the end.. it made it so i didn’t need to use the rss i learned how to use before. o well.. it was fun anyways.. though.. it’s not done yet.. i need to add a title image, archives, links.. etc .. it looks like a xanga site now. something as you well should know.. i’m not too pleased about.

misc. jibberish –

you know.. i know i had something to write here before.. for the life of me, nothing’s coming to me. o well..

happy sabbath

something something something
for jonathan
blah blah blah
the end..

more later

“All that is necessary for evil to prevail is for good men to do nothing”

God.. duh

this shouldn’t even be titled midnight.. more like.. early morning.. shouldn’t even be labeled ramblings.. it’s going to be just pure jibberish. lying in bed.. i felt i shouldn’t go to sleep until i put my thoughts on paper.. yet there may be too many thoughts.. making it.. in a sense.. no thought..

i’m starting to shake for some reason.. my stomach’s grumbling.. today.. i ate.. 4 slices of toast. 3 bowls of ice cream. not exactly healthy food. but gives me energy to go..

i need to talk to someone. but it’s 4 in the morning. i’m not sure what i need to talk about either… i just need to talk.. and.. have someone listen. probably what i’d say wouldn’t make sense either way.. i just…

has something ever happened to you, where you just don’t know how you’re supposed to react? you’re not sure exactly what to say/do/think. the road my undramatic life was driving on just hit a uturn. i’m not saying it just became dramatic.. just..

i’m not sure

i’m not sure what i’m suppose to think. it’s complicated. but i don’t know why it is. i’m not particularly sad or depressed.. i don’t feel angry or.. bitter. i just feel.. i don’t know this feeling.. it’s such a weird feeling.

randomly.. i was driving to the san marino bofa from my house. on the way i thought to myself, ever since i moved, there’s an atm running distance from my house. why am i going to the san marino?.. and as i was thinking this.. i thought.. hmmm.. even my old house is closer to that atm than san marino… by then. i was more than halfway to the san marino bofa.. so i just kept going there..

i’m set in my old ways.. odd ways.. and it causes things to repeat. deja vu all over again to a lesser extend.

what God? what?

what is with this need to just forget? i don’t know why this is in my head these days.. we fight today… but tomorrow it’d be ok.. next week it will be forgotten.. is that a good thing? is it?

what would you do if i just up and left? didn’t post anymore. didn’t come and visit. would you forgive me for it.. would you forget me? would i hold a place in your heart? this is what i do.. this is who i am. i’m too stubborn to call. i’m too stubborn to im. too lazy to answer the phone.

it’s no question why i change my friends so often. it’s no question why those that fight to keep in touch with me are the ones i hold most dear to me. it’s something i should change.. but i doubt i will.. it’s just who i am… what i do..

i forget.

make me remember
make me understand
uncomplicate things
make it simple
i want to know why

why?