i came home from church dead tired.. that was more than two hours ago.. and i’m still up.. i’m not sure why that is. not that i’ve been doing anything productive… not that i ever do anything productive late at night..

but here i am.. staring at my computer screen.. writing another blog..

i actually read my bible today.. it’s the first time in so long.. you know i started going to rosemead church… 6 months ago?.. and i left my bible in the adult church on the first week.. and it’s been there since 2 weeks ago. i feel hypocritical that i can be up there, leading praise every week with my own spiritual life dead inside.

so i read the bible. when i don’t read for a long time, i look for inspiration from up above and i open my bible at random to look for random verses. Maybe God will show me a good verse.

first cut – last chapter of mark… hmm… go into all the world and preach the good news.. etc etc.. that.. doesn’t quite apply to how i feel right now..

second cut – ezekiel.. hmm.. i don’t even want to read this book

3rd cut – 2 chronicles – “Give thanks to the Lord, for his love endures forever.” 2 Chr 20:21

hmm… i know crystal told me to read a book in the bible… i can’t remember what…

4th cut – last book of hosea – repentance to bring blessing…


dear God,

i’m sorry i don’t pay as much attention to you as I should. please make me want to


i’ve got a lot of things on my mind right now. so much i can’t put it to words. so i’ll end the blog here