jina in joey’s car last july

so.. i posted this picture more than a couple hours ago… but i was side-tracked and never posted anything with it.. but now i don’t really know what my line of thought was to post this picture… hmm..

i suppose it had something to do with me hanging out with jina yesterday. she called me at like… 10 to hang out and we drove around for a bit and ate and sat at ihop until 4 in the morning. i was loaded up on coffee and 6 packets of sugar. by the time i was driving her home i was starting to hallucinate.

i think because i’ve pretty much had bad eyes most of my life, whenever i see something clear in a far distance, it makes me feel a little uneasy.

as i was talking to jina last night, i realized how nice it is to have friends that i could do absolutely nothing with and talk about pretty much anything with for hours on hours…

– sidetracked again…

i wish lost wasn’t a rerun…

hmm… umm… so… i think what the major topic of the night was my lack of need to be in a relationship. (this sentence took forever to write. what is the opposite of the noun need?) she’s always telling me to be open to find a relationship and i keep telling her that i don’t think a relationship could benefit me in anyway so it’d be pointless…

now saying that, i’ll probably find myself in a relationship soon… *shudder

i can’t think straight right now

why so surprised susan
Does Susan look like this at 4 in the morning?

susan M00NS: hmm u haven’t updated ur website in…14 days
timEtoIMtim: i haven’t?
susan M00NS: 2 weeks yo!
susan M00NS: nope
timEtoIMtim: hmm..
timEtoIMtim: that’s true
timEtoIMtim: haha
susan M00NS: x)
timEtoIMtim: i didn’t realize that
timEtoIMtim: maybe i’ll update tomorrow
susan M00NS: put: susan is awesome for reminding me to update =D
timEtoIMtim: haha
susan M00NS: and don’t copy and paste my sn on it too! =P
timEtoIMtim: hahaha

i was browsing my mp3’s the other day… in the last couple years, i’ve managed to amass roughly over 7 gigs of music. that translates to about 1500 songs and if i listened to each song in my playlist and let it run continuously, it’d take me over 4 days to finish listening to them all. music is an incredible thing; especially how affects the mind. 1500 songs.. i’m sure i could recite at least one line in most of the songs. so much information that’s more or less useless.

Each song though holds something dear to my heart. Reminds of a time or place that i loved or maybe just wanted to forget. When i listen to coldplay, it reminds me of raymond and vivian and it gives me good feelings inside. when i listen to lifehouse, i’m reminded of anxiety i had from school and other things 2 years ago. don’t even mention sixpence none the richer. (although i don’t have an mp3 from them) my mood sours quickly. i tend to delete songs that make me feel that bad. though the other day… while perusing, i came across two songs that when i heard the beginnings of both, i was brought to tears.

i was brought to tears last monday. after spending the evening with my sister’s sick family, both my mom and i came down with fevers. i haven’t felt that bad in many years. around 4 in the morning on tuesday, i thought i was going to die. by 2 in the afternoon i was completely fine. one thing worth noting, however, is that i’ve only had one meal since sunday night though i’ll probably eat after i finish this post. this marks the second time i’ve been sick this season. i had a cold earlier this year. it must be because i’m always surrounded by two little germ carriers these days. hehe.

my sickness has prevented me from finishing my programming project. programming itself is pretty simple. what is hard is the bug checking that needs to be down. ted sent me a link the other day. it’s an article that documents fatal errors that have occured because of errors people had because of bad programming. it’s simple to code integer + integer = newinteger. but what happens if the stupid user puts a letter instead of an integer? programs crash. or according to the article, some times people die.

computers are stupid things. and i seem to know how to crash them. looking at my credit card balance last month, i realized i was double charged for tuition. well not double charged. but charged twice. my credit card was charged for what seems to be an arbitrary number. i went to the cashiers and they’ve never seen that happen before. it took them a week to sort it out and still they have no idea what happened. they’re just hoping the system won’t mess up again which i suppose is a warning to anyone that goes to pcc; check your credit card statements.

i’ve touched a mac only a couple times in my life and i’ve managed to crash them twice. macs are for little kids in elementary school anyways. the interface is so childish. looks like the new aim triton. which i’m sure the people at aol are regretting they made at the moment. eh…

find a bug, fix it.

a storms a coming..

i’m a man with many injuries and after every break, crack or dislocation one thing has been a constant. whenever something was coming, ie earthquake or storm or change of weather, my most recent injury has hurt for days before it happened. it’s not always completely right. it may be just hurting simply because is so cold… but in any case, i feel in my bones that something’s coming. something drastic. something bigger than usual. i can’t pick up anything with my left hand without pain, ie my nephews or niece.

man.. it’s cold…

grace nam and me

so i got an email this morning from myspace; apparently kange wanted me to add her to her friend list. after thinking about it for a bit i decided, eh… ok… i visit my myspace as often as i visit my friendster. (which is pretty much never) myspace, friendster, xanga – they’re all pretty amazing websites. a couple clicks here and there and i’m looking at people i graduated with 6 years ago. there’s that girl i had a crush on. there’s that guy that went to the same school as me for 12 years but i didn’t talk to. hey… i knew that guy was gay… etc etc..

a while ago, i made an observation to myself. for a guy that spends most of his time in temple city, i don’t run into people i knew in high school as often as i’d think i would. looking at the myspace’s though, i understand why. i don’t recognize any of these people. i’m sure i’ve actually crossed paths with most of them (most of them still reside in temple city) i just don’t think i identify them. names are familiar. but faces are a shadow of themselves. they’re covered with tattoos, drinking, drugs, kids… changing the image i once had of each of them. the fat ones are now skinny. skinny one’s now fat.

ben and grace so

it made me think… how much have i changed? looking through my hard drive i couldn’t find picture of me from 1999. i don’t think i took many pictures. the first picture is from 2001. i don’t talk to this girl anymore and i’m not sure why. if any of you have pictures of me from around… y2k.. send them to me. i’m interested to seeing them.

this picture was taken the same day as the first picture. these two actually look the same to me… if you look in the background, that chubby head you see is jay. i thought that was kinda funny. pre-waterpolo i believe.

another birthday to announce. yes it’s my little cousin’s birthday. this picture was taken… about 8 months ago. i have another picture of him about.. a year ago and man, he was tubby. we used to make fun of him all the time for being so chubby but because of football (i assume) he’s lost a lot of weight… now i guess we can only make fun of derek. jonathan grew a lot this year and i don’t mind hanging out with him anymore. he’s not a liability on the football field. he just doesn’t stand there anymore. he’s not very good at rook though or fantasy football… maybe next year, i’ll write that he’s good at those things too.

eh.. i doubt it.

here’s my advice to you:
life is a constant fantasy football draft. always learn from the mistakes you made the last draft and don’t repeat them. you need to always adapt and adjust. lastly, never pick up culpepper.

happy birthday jonathan! if you ever need a ride home from my house, you know you can always depend on me to tell you to walk.

about 10 months ago i posted a wav file of me messing around on the guitar.. i did it a couple times that day and i’m not sure why i didn’t post the others with it. looking for a picture i found the files, so i’ll post them now…

this is the original file.
this is me recording over the original file.

i mess up a couple times and the sound quality’s terrible but whatever… i realize. what i think i’m playing and what is heard when i play is different. i don’t realize i do so much plucking. tell me what you think

Life goes by
In the blink of an eye
Tears won’t bring you back tonight
I’m gonna to celebrate love
With hope in my heart
I don’t wanna fall through the hole in the dark
I can’t go where you had to go
I don’t know what you needed to know
All I can do is let you go
Bye bye butterfly

Painted horses
Red and brown
Round and round and up and down
Where childhood memories are found
Bye bye butterfly

I can’t go where you had to go
I don’t know what you needed to know
All I can do is let you go
Bye bye butterfly

Let it rain
Let it shine
Everything has got to change
Bye bye butterfly
x 2
bye bye

(guitar solo)

You got to be strong and hold your head held high
Don’t let the devil shake your hand to tight
He’ll take your power away from you
And leave you empty like the blood I’ve use

let it rain
let it shine
everything has got to change
bye bye butterfly

let the angels fly with you tonight
let the angels fly with you tonight
all I can do is just let you go

been looking for the lyrics to the song.. couldn’t find it anywhere. i just decided to listen and write it for people that might be google-ing it like i tried to do.

the last line of the bridge… “and leave you empty like the blood i’ve used” i don’t know if that’s right… it doesn’t make sense to me… but it’s all i hear every time i play it. chris pierce is pretty new but he did have a song on the crash soundtrack. sarah first told me to listen to him.

i know you’re going to read this sometime soon. hope you had a great birthday. i’m always open to getting ice cream with you. maybe i’ll make you a cake or something later. though i did buy that cheesecake from you. may this year be even better than last and may you grow another foot. =)

why do you always look surprised in your pictures