a dream realized

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decisions

I had to think about this one for a long time.

It’s been a while since I last got my hair cut. I had been debating between getting it done pretty much same way I seem to always do or, for the sake of change, just shave it all off.

I think haircuts are an intricate part of who we are. Have a good haircut, and maybe the next time, we’ll get the exact same haircut. Have a bad haircut, and we can’t stop complaining.

I’ve had the same haircut, pretty much since I graduated from high school. It’s pretty simple. It’s just a variation of what I had before then except it’s maybe a little less conservative.

My hair was getting long though. It’s probably grown twice as long as it should have.

And well, today, it just came to the point where I had to do something about it.

So, which way to go?

I like my usual haircut. I’ve had it for a while now. I know what to expect. At 20 dollars, though, I can only have this haircut when I’m rich.

and…

I’ve never shaved my head before. I have no idea what it’d look like. Sure, it’d look different. But, would the change be for good? I have no experience with a shaved head. What if it’s terrible?

Over the weekend, I was completely on the fence about it. Never did I ever think that I’d shave my head, but late Saturday night, I was definitely thinking about it. I talked to a few people about it, but they didn’t seem to really know either.

In the end, I decided to stay with my usual. Shaving my head was just a little too drastic. Maybe in a couple years, I’ll think differently of it.

I know, before I know it, I’ll have to make this decision again anyway.

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FireFox Solved

I love FireFox.

But, I love how the fonts look on Safari/IE. If you’ve every used these two, you know what I’m talking about.

I stumbled across the solution late at night

Right click the desktop > Properties >
Appearance Tab > Effects Button >
Click on “Use the following method to smooth edges of screen fonts” >
scroll down to ClearType > Click OK > Apply.

Now I can use the power of FireFox with the beauty of Safari without the nasty memory leak.

It’s amazing how satisfying this is for me.

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testing – disregard

1 2 and… 1 2 3 four

revamped layout
updated css’s
corrected inconsistencies in fonts
spacers added

to do:
top bar
date tag
copyright

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on edge

It’s been a month or so since my sister’s Ipods were stolen. This house has been living on edge since.

Twice since the incident the minivan’s car alarm has gone off around 3 or 4 in the morning. Each time, a trio of men have stormed from the house in their underwear searching for the culprit. We haven’t found anyone yet.

Two nights ago, from my porch I could see my dad outside sneaking a stick behind his back as he checked the dark corners of the perimeter.

Last night, I slept with my window open. It’s been hot in the house because I think my mom’s been turning off the air conditioning. At 3, I woke up to a jolt because I heard a noise from outside.

I looked out my window from my bed. The motion-sensor lights were on.

In an unconscious moment, I had run down my stairs out my door. I surveyed the driveway and continued to run down the street. My eyes desperately searched for any movement.

There was none.

I found myself standing in middle of the street wearing only my shorts and sandals. In my right hand, I held a screwdriver in the reverse grip.

It makes me wonder what would have happened if I actually did find someone lurking in my yard.

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do you see what i see?

I was talking to Jessica today and we were debating on the cute-ness of YouTube Diva Jennifer Chung. Jessica is ga-ga over her, but me, and I’ve told many a people this, I can’t get over the fact that she looks like Sam Han. No really. If she cut her hair and wore glasses, I’d expect her to play the box for me during praise.

Am I the only one that sees this?

Anyway, I found a picture of Sam and Joanne, and decided to photoshop it a little bit. Wish Sam wasn’t wearing his glasses…

hehe… Sam IS pretty cute though.

On a completely unrelated note, our AIM conversation drifted as usual to food.

shorteehstyle: want me to get you food?
TIMe ToIM TIM: what kind?
shorteehstyle: i think we’re eating chinese
TIMe ToIM TIM: you’re eating chinese people?
TIMe ToIM TIM: wow
TIMe ToIM TIM: i knew you didn’t like them
TIMe ToIM TIM: but.. that’s
TIMe ToIM TIM: just.. disgusting
shorteehstyle: haha

I have an inordinate amount of fun with this girl.

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June Gloom

I awoke to a sudden jolt this morning.

… I am walking down a hall, maybe it’s a cafeteria. To the left of me I see a vending machine. The glass on the vending machine is removed; it looks like the machine is in the middle of getting loaded. No one is around. On the bottom, there’s a blue ice cream treat. I think it’s OREO. I buy it and continue walking down the hall.

To the right of me, I see the vending machine stocker. I tell him I bought an ice cream thinking he might worry that I stole it. He tells me it’s a popular new treat. I walk out the door. I’m on the street. I see my car. Blinking turn signals lights ahead. Arthur is there, and so is an older woman I don’t know.

As I get closer to my car, I see my gas tank door on the floor, a hose dangles from the tank. Arthur tells me, “It’s all gone.” I look in my car. It’s completely empty. I open my trunk. It’s amazingly clean.

Is my guitar gone? No, I put it away earlier today. My glove. It’s gone. Those bastards stole my glove. I look inside my car. I find my old glove, but not my new one.

I scream into the dark sky. “Why? Why?”

In my frantic state, I unknowingly wander into a busy street. I look down in time to watch a pair of headlights crash into my side.


Things that have happened in the past month or so:
1. Jessica’s car got broken into. GPS stolen. Window broken.
2. My guitar was cracked. I don’t know how. I think one of the youth dropped it.
3. Joey’s car got broken into. Broken window. Stolen palm holder.
4. My sister’s car was broken into. 2 Ipods stolen.
5. Jessica got rear ended. Hit and run.
6. Arthur lost his appendix.
7. My dad’s car broke down twice. (my car, as well, sits unfixed)

I keep thinking it’s only going to get better. But something keeps coming up.

I think as I long as I have something to lose, it will probably be lost. A side from Arthur’s appendix, everything else is just material and monetary loss. In that sense, I’m grateful to have things that I can lose.


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CardioParadox

Sometimes, when no one is looking, I like to sink to the bottom of the pool and look up at the surface. I feel a serene stillness when I see the chaotic rippling above me. Sound becomes empty and secondary. As my lungs ache for air, the difference between life and death is counted in precious seconds. God slows down the world for me so I can breathe.

I’ve been spinning in the morning. Then I’ve been swimming. In all other times, I’ve been struggling to stay awake. According to self.com, I burn somewhere from 1000 to 2000 calories in the morning.

After 2 weeks of it, it’s equated to me losing about 2 pounds. I didn’t really expect much but I did figure I’d be under 170 by now.

It’s not so bad; My clothes are starting to fit better so there must be something going on.

It’s funny how things in life seem to always relate to each other. In Bio, we’re learning about carbohydrates and the differences of each -ose. After spin, my coach told everyone to eat complex carbs, not simple carbs. I instantly knew what he was talking about.

After the pep-talk, I vowed to not drink as much Pepsi. After class, Jessica and I went to my new favorite place, Sbarro’s and she asked me if I wanted a Pepsi. I couldn’t say no.

What is this hold you have on me? Why can’t I shake your sweetness on my tongue? You’re so good, yet so bad. My mouth waters for you; my heart yearns for you.

My empty carbs consumption (ie. pepsi, cinnamon rolls, ice cream) probably equates to my exercise burn. If I could just stop eating badly and continue to exercise, imagine the possibilities.

The irony of all the cardiovascular exercise I do is that I turn out to be even more tired than when I don’t do exercise. Sure I can now swim 25 meters without much thought and bike for an hour, but at 12 o’clock when I walk up the stairs for Bio, my quads are killing me. Whenever I’m not exercising, I’m recovering from it. So I feel worse off than usual.

so..

I don’t feel good when I exercise because I’m tired from the exercise. When I don’t exercise, I don’t feel good because I need to exercise.

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losing weight with widgets

One of the many new types software I’ve been using is yahoo widgets. It’s kind of like google gadgets but the widgets aren’t confined to a side bar. It’s more like mac’s dashboard. I love it. I’d run it simply for the “one photo” widget. It looks incredible on my desktop.

I can see why it’s not that popular. If I didn’t have 2 gigs of ram and a quad core processor, I think it’d significantly slow my computer down. Each widget uses about 15 mb’s of ram.

One widget I’ve been using lately is from skinnyr.

The widget makes keeping track of my weight a breeze.

For the summer, I’ve signed myself up for some intense exercise. Cycling for 2 hours. Swimming for 2 hours. Let’s see if it makes a difference. I’ve created a mini blog with skinnyr and linked it to my sidebar. Keep track with my progress either on this post or using the link.

I used to have a mini blog about 4 years ago and each post said i weighed about 140 pounds. I almost feel like that’s a girly weight now.

I’m hoping by August this graph will look like our economy.

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in the secret

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We did this a couple months ago after praise practice. At the end of the clip, Pastor Chung walks in and asks me who is going to lock up the church.

I don’t know why my head bobs so much.

It’s weird hearing myself play the guitar because I don’t hear this when I play. I feel like I only play chords. My talking voice is also much lower than what i hear in my head.

At times, when Jessica sings, she get gets this country twang. I love it!

I’m sure we’ll make more silly clips after finals.

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